“Andre” was a fellow resident at Baker Lodge. We were very good friends. I wrote this letter to his family shortly after he passed away.
January 12, 1995
Mark R. Keddy,
Baker Lodge, Extended Care Unit,
Quesnel BC
To: Jean A. and Family
DEAR A*** FAMILY,
All of you have been on my mind a lot. I will mail this letter directly to you, Jean, if I don’t happen to see you, Colleen, first. I hope that there is a way to see you all again. I am embarrassed at how many months that I have been at this letter. Sooner or later, I know that I will see you somewhere, perhaps one by one, downtown or in a mall. If any of you feel like giving me a quick or long phone call, I am in the phone book under my own name. The best time to reach me is the early morning {7-9} or early evening when I am usually in my room and near the phone. If you do phone, please let it ring, at least ten times. … I do not want to make a nuisance of myself, but I would like to phone you once in a while, Jean. I do not make it any harder on you, but I have been not only missing Andre, but also you.
For three weeks, the latter half of November plus a few days in December, we had a major redecoration job done. Before they started it, I was wishing that they could pass my room by. … But now so many have said my room is the most pretty room of the Unit. This is mainly due the blue tint on the walls and the door. Each room has its own color scheme, new vertical blinds, wall paper on the window side, new **arborite around dressers and sinks. They moved nine bed residents to two vacant rooms in the old part of the hospital. Then they moved the rest of us residents to different rooms as needed and back again. Although I got very nervous at it at the time, it forced me to makes changes in my book cupboard arrangements that I am glad of now. … And I am not through making changes yet.
During the first week of September, I made the comment that I am hoping for a long dark lonely winter. But it is almost half gone already! As usual, I have a mountain of things to do this winter. And I know that as usual, I will get only a small fraction of it done. … My desire and ambition is always so much greater than my capabilities, but this is what keep me going and free of boredom. … Even more than ever, I need to sort, organize and try to eliminate many things. That long essay on my “Unit Feelings” that I gave you last winter, Jean, was read by many people. Some thought that it was my book, but it was not even the start of it. While I said several important things in it, please do not imagine that all my writings are similar in content and tone.